When it comes to expressing personal feelings, I'm at lost. I keep quiet. Just because I do not know how to express it at all. The fear of saying the wrong things; the fear of sounding like I'm accusing; the fear of looking like a bad person. That's why I always keep my words, swallow my words, drown my thoughts. Recently, I tried to voice out more, because yes, you have a point, if we don't talk, we can't resolve anything. I try, and I try, and I try. But when I try, it backfires, I always sound like I'm accusing, I always seem to use the wrong words, I always look like a bad person, I'm always the one stirring matters, I'm always the problem maker. So this got me thinking, maybe I should just go back to how I was before, keep my words, swallow my words, drown my thoughts. Silence is really golden. Perhaps I should just stick to what I'm good at: keeping things to myself. At least I won't be wounding anyone else but myself.
Sunday, February 27, 2011
I was disappointed when Chris Medina didn't make it into the Top 24, until I saw a video on YouTube.
It's comforting to know that his talent and big heart touched the people at 19 Recordings Inc (one of the best recording label in my opinion). I do hope he releases an album soon.
It's not easy taking care of someone who is ill, paralyzed, or dependent. Especially if that someone is your family member or life partner. It's a very painful process, but I do hope he'll find comfort through singing and touching the lives of others. He's certainly inspired me to love my loved ones harder...
"What are words if you don't really mean them. What are words, if they're only for good times. When it's love, yeah, you say them out loud. Those words, they never go away. They live on, even when we're gone"
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Life is very short, I always try remind myself everyday.
5 years ago, shortly after knowing each other for just 4-months, we took a chance on each other. Looking back, it seemed pretty risky, but I guess it paid off when we followed our hearts that fateful night (cheh wah like writing story book like that).
We decided to spend our evening at the Sepang Goldcoast beach. The sun was glorious, the weather was perfect, and my heart leaped with excitement when Perahu Restaurant came in view. I've always wanted to dine right next to the sea.
I can't decide which is the best part of the night: watching the sun set, feeling the cool sea breeze, listening to the beautiful sound of the waves, having a cosy meal (I'd suggest to skip the food though; it'd have been very tasty if the seafood was fresh), having an ice cold beer, spacing out or just being with you. I guess it's everything. I felt so sulky that we had to leave... I wish for more moments like this; I wish we had all the time in the world... but above all, I wish we'll be able to celebrate our 50th year together in a beautiful place like this.
Happy 5 years anniversary.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Goooooooood news everyone! (quote Professor Farnsworth from Futurama)
I'm looking at establishing an ad hoc team to develop an iPad game. This is one of the new direction of my company and personally, I'm EXCITED!
Apple products & services has always been the core of the business and I have to admit, at the beginning I was skeptical about the iPad. But once I got a unit, it's amazing to discover the potential that lies beneath this piece of technology. Brilliant, simply brilliant. Not forgetting the fact that they have loads of addictive games in store... hands itching for Plants vs Zombies all of the sudden.
So, for this project, I need at least one graphic designer (specializing in cartoon or animation drawing/characters), and at least one Objective C or Cocoa programmer. Best if you're based in Kuala Lumpur, or Selangor D.E. Malaysia.
It doesn't matter if you're a student, a freelancer, or a professional, if you're genuinely interested to explore the opportunities together, I'd like to invite you to join me in this project.
Please shoot me an email at firstname.lastname@example.org if you're interested, or if you know anyone who will fit the bill.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011
I've been wanting to go on the Putrajaya Cruise for the longest time, but never had the opportunity to do so.
One morning last week, while still on my Chinese New Year break, I decided to drive all the way to Putrajaya at the spur of the moment. It's now or never!!! I thought to myself.
According to the website, the afternoon cruise takes off at 12PM. I managed to reach Putrajaya at around 11:30AM, but ended up at the Botanical Garden, the wrong location. I had to make my way to the Putra Square, near the Putrajaya Mosque. Thankfully it's just around the corner, so I made it on time.
After buying the ticket, I was immediately escorted to the boat. This kind of service is rare in Malaysia, so I was pleasantly surprised by the efficiency!
I chose the Dondang Sayang Perahu, a wooden boat instead of the air-conditioned boat. The weather was FREAKIN hot but I really wanted to be as close to the water as possible. And guess what, I was the only passenger! Wheeee, screams with excitement :)
The staffs were very polite and kind. One of them even offered to take some pictures of me before the boat took off. I was pleased with his kind gesture, but honestly I was more worried that he might drop my baby into the water, eek.
This is my you-better-hold-on-to-my-camera-properly-or-I'll-kill-you smile.
So the boat took off and the breeze was just wonderful. The sound of the water was tranquilizing... And to be all alone on the boat, and in fact, on the entire lake was just an incredible feeling.
I do plan to go for the night cruise soon. If the day cruise is good, the sunset cruise will be even better-imagine the brightly lit buildings, cool breeze, moonlight and starry starry night...
Thursday, February 10, 2011
Today is my second day back at work. Honestly, I'm not in the mood to work at all :( I crave for yummy meals, prawn crackers, being a couch potato and going out to random places, just for fun. The one thing I didn't do this Chinese New Year, but still hope for the chance to do so (well, still have 7-days left!), is to play with fireworks and firecrackers. Seriously, when was the last time I even held a sparkler?? Or threw Pop-Pops?? I still remember when I was small girl, dad will drag a super long firecracker upstairs, dangle it by the balcony, and lit it up. It was so Chinese New Year. Loved the loud crackling sound and feel of it.
Speaking bout dad, he's been sick since the first day of CNY. While spending some time with mom earlier, talking about dad's condition, I have to admit I was a lil' scared. Seeing your loved one sick, weak and dependent is difficult. I don't ever want my dad to leave us. What would I do without him? What will become of me without him? He's recovering though, so don't worry. He's having a cough now. A very stubborn and persistent cough though. All I wish for is that he gets sufficient sleep and rest.
Now, where can I find more prawn crackers and firecrackers...