I honestly think the term 'entrepreneur' is romanticized.
Since the day I left my day job back in May, whenever someone asks me 'How are you?', I'm sorely tempted to reply them, 'Still surviving'.
Sometimes, I miss having a fixed income. Regardless whether you perform well or not at work, your bank account will never 'starve'; your purse/wallet will always be full.
I miss being able to spend money without thinking much. I could just grab stuff off the shelf and buy the things that I like. I also loved the fact that I could give my mom money every month and buy nice things for my dad. I loved it because I feel empowered and independent, and that I'm finally contributing to the family in my small lil' way.
Many people think that setting up your own business is a luxury; you have all the time you want and you have all the freedom you want. I really beg to differ... first, you have to work twice as hard; secondly, you're on your own baby; third, no day job and no rich taikoon papa (or sugar daddy?) and no luck to win lottery/jackpot = no steady cashflow. I used to reject small graphic designing jobs but nowadays I do whatever I can and accept as many jobs as I am able to. Because even a small amount is significant to me now.
Starting out on your own is a lonely journey. A journey filled with doubts, sacrifices and frustration.
At times, I feel like giving up and going back to the work force and be done with it. At times, I wonder why am I doing the things that I'm doing now.
The only answer I have is because of passion. That's the only thing that's driving me now. That's the only logical feeling I'm experiencing now. I cannot imagine doing another thing at the moment. It's like I cannot imagine loving another person. It's something I must die doing (OK that's a lil' exaggerated lah but you get the point), else one day, I'd regret not taking the plunge when I have the chance to.
It's something that I know I have to do (and I hope I won't die doing it, LOL).