A friend created a short film entitled 'Agony' recently.
The funny thing is, he and I never really talked back in high school, but somehow Facebook and new technology got us connected.
It started off with a message I posted on Facebook, asking if anyone has David Archuleta's showcase tickets to give away.
He said he has two of it.
He came to meet me at BSC taxi stand past midnight just to pass me the tickets.
But at the end, I didn't go... due to certain reasons. Sigh, I know... wasted huh? :(
Anyway, fast forward to very recently, he showed me his short film entry for BMW Shorties competition.
I watched, and I felt funny inside, because it's as though it's talking to me.
The short started with a moody looking videographer walking into an empty-looking home. While having his packed dinner in front of the computer, he does some editing on a wedding assignment. Then, continues to burn the completed work into a DVD. He progresses into his room to play the wedding video on the DVD player. While watching the footage, the videographer felt immense loneliness... He eventually broke down, and breaks the DVD into pieces.
I relate to the story not because of the breaking-DVD-into-pieces part, but the loneliness-while-watching/editing-wedding-assignments part.
I admit one of the reason why I venture into my new found love-wedding photography, be it reading renown wedding photographers' blog or actually carrying out the task, is because I feel very drawn towards a couple's love for each other. My mind escapes for a short duration whenever I'm looking through the pictures...
To me, it's something rare and difficult to be attained; It's something so precious and magical; It's something I don't see myself having. Sometimes, I feel very warm inside while looking at the pictures, I feel touched knowing there is real love, alot of them. Other times, I feel sad and emotional, thinking to myself, I'll never have that. OK, maybe never is a heavy word, but that's how I really feel at the moment.
That reminds me of something.
Last week, I had the opportunity to do a presentation to the Managing Director. After the preso, we discussed and somehow, the topic diverted into 'inspirations'. He spoke alot on the things that he recently found interest in, like digital drawing, BBQ & grill (yeah, of all things) etc. One thing he said that stuck onto my mind since then was something along this lines:
"What you have shown me is good, but you're missing a point. Now, it's like, you're preparing for a wedding but you don't know what is the reason for your wedding/marriage".
Then he turned to me, "Are you married?"
I said no.
"Why do couples get married?", he posted that question to us all.
He paused and then said out loud and clear, "Because of love, as simple as that".
For a grown man to express his thoughts about love in public, somehow, it touches me. I don't know why... maybe it's because all along, I've always felt that men never show their true feelings or express their love in any obvious way. DNA, ego or whatever reason... I don't know and I'll never know. That's why, whenever a man shows his love in public, I just... feel very emotional.
It's really hard to describe the feeling that I'm feeling right now... if you can relate to what I've blabbered above, thank you for understanding. If you are scratching your head and feeling puzzled at my silliness, I also thank you for actually reading this entry till the end.
Actually that reminds me of another thing. You know after that preso to the MD, I was thinking to myself, I am able to express and deliver what I want to say to colleagues and others without problems, but whenever it comes to personal talks with my loved ones, somehow, I just lose the ability to voice out and express. It's like crippled. I really wonder why I'm like this. I am a completely different person at work and home. In a way, it's a good thing cuz I don't like to mix both personal and work together. I can be a good friend but I may be a difficult person to work with. At work, I kinda keep to myself and I just realize I'm pretty antisocial. To me, work is work.
Anyway, why the serious talk at this time right? Off to my bed and pillows...
PS: Watched True Hollywood Stories: Michael Jackson on Astro earlier on. Just let him rest in peace for goodness sake, he's been through so much already, it's time for him to truly rest.
