Finally, after many emails, BY has confirmed with the new company on his acceptance to the job offer. It's a done deal. He is going to Singapore to work.
I feel torn apart. I was the one who encouraged him to go (he initially said no amount of money will attract him to leave Malaysia) because I know he really likes the job scope and secondly, it is undeniable that our financial situation will improve tremendously. Also, being head hunted by an international company is not an everyday situation, so I felt that he should not waste this opportunity. We're still young.
The reality and ideal world always clashes. So torn apart...
At times I feel so down. We just go married and just starting a new life together... now I need to learn how to cope without having my husband around. I have no one to sleep next to, no one to wake up with, no one to talk to in the mornings, no one to look forward to during the night... I know it's only for four days (our initial plan is that he comes home after work on Fridays, and spends the weekends home) but it will be difficult.
I will always have to remind myself that take each day at a time. Think less about the future as it is not in our control. Enjoy every moment possible and make the best. Yes, make the best.